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I was born on August 29, 1944 on Coronado Island at the Naval Hospital. My mother was not married. She
had been married and had two children and then was in a relationship for several years and had two more
children. Then she got pregnant with me and it was with her boss at the time around Christmas. She did not
want me or this man in her life so she fled to Southern California and put me up for adoption. She then
returned to the Fresno area and married a man and had another child. She stayed in this marriage until he
died some years later. I say all this so that you know that I have 5 siblings and up until the year 2002 I did not
know any of my birth family.
I was placed in the California Children's Receiving Home and stayed there until I was adopted at age 18
months. My adopted father was very abusive to me both emotionally and physically and sexually. Because of
this I have had a really hard time with the concept of a loving Heavenly Father. I was taken to church every
Sunday but my dad sang in the choir and then would come home and get drunk and abuse my mother and me
and my sister so I had a really bad idea of what church should be like too.
I wanted to get out of the house so bad that I got pregnant when I was just out of high school by a boy that I
had been dating for several years. We married but it was not a good marriage. We were young and selfish
and had no idea about love and parenting. I was saved one night when I was 27 years old and it was so
wonderful. I was immediately put into leadership roles in the church with the women's groups. I stayed in this
marriage for 17 very long years. I tried to work it out and would go to counseling and every seminar I could to
make things better at home. But to no avail. I became very sick and one day I packed my things and left my 3
children with their father. I was alone for 10 years and always asked the Lord "One thing I desire and that I will
seek after, that I may dwell in the house of the Lord forever and inquire in His temple". Well I did that and
worked very hard at restoring my relationships with my children. Praise God we do have a good relationship
now. I remarried in 1988 to a wonderful man that I was working with at the time. He is a believer and our
children went to rival Christian Schools as they grew up.
We have retired now in Idaho and enjoy our little church here on the Nez Perce Indian Reservation. I am the
Women's Ministry President and love serving our Lord here.
No matter where you are or what you have done or where you have been, God is in the business of restoring
us to Himself. Give Him your all and let Him make you all that He has created you for. God bless you as you
study His word. Jan Grueter, a sinner saved by grace.
had been married and had two children and then was in a relationship for several years and had two more
children. Then she got pregnant with me and it was with her boss at the time around Christmas. She did not
want me or this man in her life so she fled to Southern California and put me up for adoption. She then
returned to the Fresno area and married a man and had another child. She stayed in this marriage until he
died some years later. I say all this so that you know that I have 5 siblings and up until the year 2002 I did not
know any of my birth family.
I was placed in the California Children's Receiving Home and stayed there until I was adopted at age 18
months. My adopted father was very abusive to me both emotionally and physically and sexually. Because of
this I have had a really hard time with the concept of a loving Heavenly Father. I was taken to church every
Sunday but my dad sang in the choir and then would come home and get drunk and abuse my mother and me
and my sister so I had a really bad idea of what church should be like too.
I wanted to get out of the house so bad that I got pregnant when I was just out of high school by a boy that I
had been dating for several years. We married but it was not a good marriage. We were young and selfish
and had no idea about love and parenting. I was saved one night when I was 27 years old and it was so
wonderful. I was immediately put into leadership roles in the church with the women's groups. I stayed in this
marriage for 17 very long years. I tried to work it out and would go to counseling and every seminar I could to
make things better at home. But to no avail. I became very sick and one day I packed my things and left my 3
children with their father. I was alone for 10 years and always asked the Lord "One thing I desire and that I will
seek after, that I may dwell in the house of the Lord forever and inquire in His temple". Well I did that and
worked very hard at restoring my relationships with my children. Praise God we do have a good relationship
now. I remarried in 1988 to a wonderful man that I was working with at the time. He is a believer and our
children went to rival Christian Schools as they grew up.
We have retired now in Idaho and enjoy our little church here on the Nez Perce Indian Reservation. I am the
Women's Ministry President and love serving our Lord here.
No matter where you are or what you have done or where you have been, God is in the business of restoring
us to Himself. Give Him your all and let Him make you all that He has created you for. God bless you as you
study His word. Jan Grueter, a sinner saved by grace.
